I am The Me I Choose To Be

Holaaaaaaaaaaaa,,,

So long,, So long,,, isn’t?? Where have
I’ve been?? Well everywhere,, anywhere,, but recently I went to Jakarta,, My home,, or
not?? It’s kinda confusing when u live in your house but ur family  isn’t there,, just u alone,,

Like me,, I live in my house, sleep in my
room,, but there’s just me alone,, I don’t know who’s not home or who’s home?,,
But let’s not talk about some sorrowness right now,, let’s talk happiness,,
Well, I was happy cause I was about meeting all members of my family,, my
parents, my sis, my bro,, my two nephews,,, I missed them so much,, How much
they left emptiness when they’re moved out,, and the purpose my going was
because it was my bro’s wedding!!!

 Oh My God,, it seems like marry at young
age (Kawin Muda) really is running in my family’s blood,, My sis got married
when she was 22,, (At My age!!),, and then my bro 24!!He’s a guy for God’s
sake!!,, I thought,, well I used to think that I’m going to get married at 22
(Now!),, just like my sis,, but what happened to me,, well quit the opposite,,
*hiks*,, No, no, no,, I’m not upset about it,, that makes my mother worry so
much,, why should she be worried? I mean the important thing is the Marriage
itself,, not the age? Isn’t?!! But, well,, cheers for the happy couple,, May their marriage last forever,, 

Oia,, this month is very special to me,,
coz it’s my birthday month,, the day before I went to Jkt was my b’day,,, Happy Birthday to me,, Hooray,,

The funny things were,, I was alone in my
house,, Home alone githu,, coz my grandparents was staying at my uncle’s,, and
when I wanted to go out,, I have task to do for the next day,, It’s weird
though,, when I remembering all my birthdays,, that was the first time I spent
it alone,, Never felt so alone in my life before,, My best friend even cried
for my loneliness,, but I didn’t,, Guess I don’t have a heart anyway,, (*kamu
memang punya hati banget A!!*) *22 is bad number for me,, really bring bad
luck*,, and I remembered celebrating my birthday with him last year cause it
was also our anniversary,, tapi this age wasn’t really bad,, cause my friends
gave me two surprise party,, pertama di kampus with my college friends,, Makasi
kalian semua,, I love you guys,, trus malemnya di Galaxy Mall,, with my
Akademos friends,, I’m so glad to have you all guys,,
*Kalian adalah racun untuk kesepianku!*,,
Ini adalah pertama kalinya sepanjang usiaku, seseorang pernah memberikan pesta
kejutan,, dua kali dalam sehari bahkan,, Seharusnya gw terharu banget,, emang
seharusnya gw menitikan air mata,, but hey,, tears had run out of my eyes,,
Sorry guys,, Just wanna smile and laugh right now,, I wonder if I still with
him, will I have this experience at all?!,, this is what I’ve been missing all
these years,, I wonder is it always friendship that you lost when you found
love? Do we always have to choose one of them? Can’t we have them both at the
same time?! Cant I?? I want to have them both in my life,, I guess that’s my
greatest wish for my birthday this year,,

 Cheers for all of us,,

*Icca*